And crash goes the plate.

I'm struggling with balance.  I've got too much on my plate and sometimes I feel like it's about to topple over.  School is putting a lot of pressure on me.  Don't get me wrong, I'm soooo over the moon happy that I'm doing this, but sheesh, writing a paper with Emma around is a lot harder than I thought it would be :P

I'm doing really well in school...4.0, baby!  That's only for one class, but hey, it's still a 4.0.  I've got a long road ahead of me, a lot of finding someone to watch Emma and daycare, a lot of figuring out how to pay for that.  But it'll be worth it in the end.  

Work is definitely putting a stress on me.  Since moving into the new house, I've really had to amp up my work load.  Some days is easier than others and I'm still trying to find that balance.  

The scariest part of all of this is knowing that it's all on me.  It's up to me to get this right.  Failing isn't an option.  There are so many days that I just want to crawl in bed and forget about everything, even for five minutes.  My mind is constantly bouncing around from issue to issue and it makes me really tired.  My brain needs a time-out.

I hate that Emma is bored on the days she doesn't have school.  I hate that I have to sit at my computer and do my job while Emma tries to occupy herself.  It breaks my heart.  I do my best to give her as much attention as I can which in turn means I'm up late working...and there goes my "me" time.  Next year when Emma is in kindergarten things will get easier.  So until September comes around, please pray I don't lose my sanity!